the start.

I’ve always enjoyed pretending to be a writer.  Faking my way through blog posts.  Trying to find “my niche.”

This time, it’s different.

After thirty plus years of forcing myself into a preconceived idea of who and what I am supposed to be, I give up.  The fascinating thing is giving up is exactly what I was supposed to do in the first place.  (I can be so stubborn sometimes).

I am Amber.  I am not typical.  I am not cookie-cutter.  If you have ideas of what “good Christian women” are, don’t count me in that crowd.  Now, don’t get me wrong.  I am trying to be good.  I am striving to be Christian.  I am certainly a woman.  But, I am most definitely an original.  (Thanks, Mom).

I feel that you need to know this ahead of time.  I need you to know what you’re getting yourself into.

For instance, I am not fashion-driven.  I do not like pink.  T-shirts are the absolute best clothing item ever.  I don’t have much interest in Kate Spade, Coach or Jimmy Choos.  I prefer Wonder Woman, backpacks and Converse.  I don’t watch hair tutorials on YouTube.  I watch videos of wild-eyed drummers with hands of lightning.

I don’t have a shy bone in my body.  I never meet a stranger.  I am quick-witted and sarcastic.  I use the word “dude” way too much.  I have OCD and ADHD…and I’m rocking it.  I love all sports and unabashedly support my teams.  I am also an olympic coffee-drinker and sushi enthusiast.

All of this is me…and I like who I’ve become.

Years ago, I had convinced myself that I could not be of worth to God because I didn’t quite fit the mold.  I knew He loved me, but I was way too different from all of these other women to be used in His kingdom.  “Women in ministry don’t play the drums, Amber.”  “Women in ministry aren’t loud and sarcastic.  And they certainly don’t wear Converse and t-shirts.”

Well, thankfully God doesn’t see those things as obstacles, but instead sees them as opportunities.  That’s why I’m here — to help others see that we have enough of what I call the “usual white bread.”  Time for some Wonder Bread to hit the shelves. 🙂

So, join me.

 -A

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